It’s time

It’s time

It’s time

This morning I woke up to something somewhat puzzling – a front page newspaper article about my own personal blog where I simply share ideas.

My blood boiled after yet another uncalled for attack on me by a former friend, Ronelle Rademeyer who works for Die Republikein. I phoned Ronelle and repeatedly asked the question of what she is trying to achieve by publishing such “news”. To say she was at a loss for words is an understatement of note……

Let me start by explaining the context in which this whole debacle is happening.

Ronelle, her husband Lourens and their two sons, Wilhelm and André, were friends (house friends) since 1998. Their kids spent many afternoons with mine and my wife drove them around to extra-murals because Ronelle was allegedly at work. We went away on weekends and in my view, were good friends. As life happens, we saw less of one another over time as we all got busy.

This now brings me back to as my complete loss of understanding and patience.

For almost two years now, I’ve wrongfully been accused by a false media narrative of playing all sorts of roles in what is called the Fishrot matter in Namibia. I have never been part of Fishrot. In June 2017, the then Attorney General of Namibia, Sackey Shangala instructed me in his professional capacity, mandated by the SWAPO Party’s then Secretary General, instructing me to manage the funding of their election campaign. With all the necessary documentation in place, I duly did so and acted on instruction as all attorneys are supposed to do.

Unfortunately, this false media narrative is borne from a principle repugnant to our society – guilt by association. So, does this mean that because she was a so called “friend” that Ronelle Rademeyer is now also guilty- because of her association with me? By creating this false media narrative through all the prejudicial pre- trial publicity, the Namibian media has stolen my constitutional presumption of innocence, and as a result flagrantly infringed upon my constitutional rights.

Well, this piece is meant to express my views on Ronelle Rademeyer’s conduct as a journalist.

She, as a professional journalist, bases her information on malicious rumours instead of facts. She also colluded with Min Leon Jooste, Minister of state owned enterprizes, about my affidavit at a time when the ACC instructed me to remain silent and keep everything confidential, and thus they would to( which they did not).

Ronelle has never attempted to get my views or hear my side of the story. She also neglected to disclose that Monica Geingos is one of the owners of Die Republikein and The Namibian Sun. How could anything they publish not be politically motivated? I also know that Dani Booysen, Editor-in-Chief of Die Republikein said that they will never leave me alone. What a friend she turned out to be….

The thing that I simply cannot get my head around is that supposedly intelligent researchers cannot ask or answer the obvious and important questions:

  • Why are the other attorneys who also acted on instructions like Jurie Badenhorst, Sisa Namandje and Sackey Amoomo not also treated (mistreated) like me?
  • Where did the money end up? Who received the money? Why aren’t they prosecuted?
  • In the true sense, I am a whistleblower. As soon as I became aware of the possible links to entities and people implicated in the Al Jazeera Fishrot exposé, I immediately reported all suspicious transactions, through my then partner and compliance officer, Celeste Coetzee. Celeste Coetzee then lied under oath about her involvement in the reporting of such.
  • Who is the mastermind, person on whose authority this whole thing was orchestrated and who are the real beneficiaries? Who are the donors and why would they donate such large amounts? In other words, where did the money go? – follow the money trial……..
  • I got clean audits by the Financial Intelligence Centre (in fact, I was commended by how we conducted our firm’s compliance aspects), the Law Society of Namibia and privately. Why is this not disclosed?
  • Why would the ACC go against their own agreement of confidentiality?
  • The Banks, the auditors and the Bank of Namibia are all reporting institutions under the Financial Intelligence Act- why did they not report the payments to the authorities? Why are they suddenly blameless?
  • If I am being blamed for being a paymaster, then all the Banks are, by definition, also paymasters- why are they not brought to task? Or are they too powerful?

 

I can think of many more, and will most definitely write about those too.

The most astonishing thing about the timing of the article, is that it appeared only a few days after an article I wrote on my blog www.marendeklerk.com was published. This article is about the motivations and consequences of fake news.

My treatment by people like Ronelle Rademeyer evoke images of of McCarthysim:

“Today, McCarthyism is synonymous with any perceived government activity that suppresses unfavorable political or social views by limiting or undermining vital civil rights and liberties under the pretext of maintaining national security. As understood, it is a means of government harassment that includes blacklisting with intent to pressure people to follow popular political beliefs. Thus anyone who makes insufficiently supported accusations or engages in unbalanced investigations against persons in an attempt to silence or discredit them is said to be practicing McCarthyism. This practice in effect represents both a denial of due process and a fundamental breach of civil liberties”

So allow me to quote and paraphrase one of the McCarthy accused’s lawyers when he directed a question to Senator McCarthy, and now ask Ms Rademeyer who is so quick to cast judgement:

“Have you no sense of decency, madam, at long last? Have you left no sense of decency?”

Remember that in law, accusation is not proof and conviction depends on real evidence and due process of law.

Might this be a case of  “the lady doth protest too much?”…………….

Just for today

Just for today

Just for today

Breathe…..breathe….

We live in a very strange time. Loss, sadness, anger and anxiety have become commonplace and I see hopelessness in many eyes. The truth is that we are in uncharted territory and live with uncertainty, fear, disinformation and are required to make choices and decisions that we don’t feel equipped to make.

Over the past weekend I was privileged enough to spend time with wonderful friends in nature. We were all disconnected from the digital world for two days, and what happened was a miracle.

We connected with ourselves and each other. We laughed and played and went on a hike. We got to sleep properly and share our love and friendship. We filled our empty cups and left with renewed determination and grace.

This profound and truly heartfelt experience had me wondering about our current state and problems and what can be done to help people feel better. We read and hear about the problems and effects of social media, and the addictive behavior it causes. The thing with addiction is that the thing you are addicted to doesn’t matter; it is the behavior of the addict that causes devastation. Disengagement, aggression, conflict, etc. happen and the loved ones feel frustration, loss and hopelessness. The addict is not of service and doesn’t contribute to the wellbeing of society.

All of us have degrees of addiction, so it might be worth looking at our own lives and the feelings we have and cause.

I know that when someone says ‘disconnect’, we could become overwhelmed and find it impossible to even contemplate such a thought. Perhaps we can start by saying “Just for today”, or “Just for a morning”, “Just for an hour” – whatever you can manage, and get involved in real life, with real people you can touch and feel. Spend a bit of time in nature and use your God-given senses to take in the wonder of Creation. A real mountain is magnificent, the smells and sounds cannot even be imagined! No picture can invoke the feelings of true, lived experience, and no story can be told as a first-hand account can.

Just for this moment, put your phones and judgements aside. Just for now, look someone in the eye. Just for today, serve others by being with them. Just for today, make the decision to be kind and gentle. Just for now, be the real you in the real world.

I ask only one thing of you today – take a deep breath, remember your values, apply them to real people and real relationships, and feel what it feels like.

You are wonderful and have gifts to give; give them.

Just for today

Just for today

Just for today

Breathe…..breathe….

We live in a very strange time. Loss, sadness, anger and anxiety have become commonplace and I see hopelessness in many eyes. The truth is that we are in uncharted territory and live with uncertainty, fear, disinformation and are required to make choices and decisions that we don’t feel equipped to make.

Over the past weekend I was privileged enough to spend time with wonderful friends in nature. We were all disconnected from the digital world for two days, and what happened was a miracle.

We connected with ourselves and each other. We laughed and played and went on a hike. We got to sleep properly and share our love and friendship. We filled our empty cups and left with renewed determination and grace.

This profound and truly heartfelt experience had me wondering about our current state and problems and what can be done to help people feel better. We read and hear about the problems and effects of social media, and the addictive behavior it causes. The thing with addiction is that the thing you are addicted to doesn’t matter; it is the behavior of the addict that causes devastation. Disengagement, aggression, conflict, etc. happens and the loved ones feel frustration, loss and hopelessness. The addict does not of service and doesn’t contribute to the wellbeing of society.

All of us have degrees of addiction, so it might be worth looking at our own lives and the feeling we have and cause.

I know that when someone says ‘disconnect’, we could become overwhelmed and find it impossible to even contemplate such a thought. Perhaps we can start by saying “Just for today”, or “Just for a morning”, “Just for an hour” – whatever you can manage, and get involved in real life, with real people you can touch and feel. Spend a bit of time in nature and use your God-given senses to take in the wonder of Creation. A real mountain is magnificent, the smells and sounds cannot even be imagined! No picture can invoke the feelings of true, lived experience, and no story can be told as a first-hand account.

Just for this moment, put your phones and judgements aside. Just for now, look someone in the eye. Just for today, serve others by being with them. Just for today, make the decision to be kind and gentle. Just for now, be the real you in the real world.

I ask only one thing of you today – take a deep breath, remember your values, apply them on real people and feel what it feels like.

You are wonderful and have gifts to give; give them.

What can you become?

What can you become?

What can you become?

Humans inherently know that they are constantly changing. Just as Life is constantly changing.

Yet, interestingly, most people are afraid of change! They sit and wait in their familiar spaces and relationships, imagining that everything stays the same. This imagined stagnation brings the illusion of comfort and control – ‘safe’ human thoughts.

Let’s look at this illusion from a few unique perspectives:

Firstly, it is impossible for anything not to change. Just looking at the individual, we have physical bodies that grow and age, we have mental bodies that hopefully develop more integrated and abstract thinking, growing in complexity, and we have emotional bodies that also develop in complexity and maturity. We also have a spiritual body that goes through developmental stages to reach maturity, we have relational bodies, dream bodies and bodies of hope.

Secondly, let’s look at our spaces. Our spaces are in constant flux with our environments and others. Whatever and whoever we allow in our spaces, contribute to our experience of all our personal bodies as mentioned above. Start very near you and look at the clothes you are wearing, the room you are in, the people, animals and plants near you. Think of the food you eat. Think about the conversations you have, the trust/distrust your environment causes, the thoughts and feelings of purpose, belonging, love and compassion you feel. Our spaces change the whole time because we are alive and have agency. We move around, share our stories, and enter other people’s spaces too.

Thirdly, we have the illusion of time moving in a specific direction. It doesn’t really matter if time is real or not, what does matter is the personal experience of time: we see ourselves and others age; we experience birth and death, and we orientate ourselves, our hopes, dreams and relationships ‘in time’.

These three perspectives are important to consider when assessing our own quality of Life. Our minds take a snapshot of a significant moment, and we subconsciously compare our reality to the mental image we have of ‘how things should be’. As we update our mental image in line with the change taking place on all these levels and we allow the changes without resistance, we generally experience Life as good. The opposite is also true: by holding onto the initial mental image and not updating it, our various bodies resist Life happening. This means that our idea of Life is fixed and we resist the natural progression or evolution of Life. Unfortunately, our old mental image becomes outdated and far removed from what is really happening in Life. The further removed our idea is from reality, the more problems all our bodies experience.

All of us have the ability to look inside and see what works and what doesn’t – even if doing so is painful. I tell you this, once you have faced those painful aspects of yourself and are willing to update your ideas about self and others, we restore flow. Think of a river that was blocked and the water became stale. Such water is a waste, because it doesn’t mean much. It doesn’t support Life. As soon as the obstacles in the river are cleared, the stale water can once again flow and make space for fresh, Life sustaining water to move. Water is Life!

So, what can you become? You can also become living water. You can sustain Life and give Life, you can wash away debris and dirt. You can give hope. You can become renewed and reverend.

To become the river of Life, your highest calling, you only have to answer one question: “Are you willing?”